RUNNING TO STAND STILL?

Or two steps forward, one step back? A quote from Oliver Wendell Holmes:

"I find the great thing in this world is not so much where we stand as in what direction we are moving."

Most of the time, I find that I am not even aware of moving forward. Or backward, for that matter. I've never been a great planner. I know where I want to be, I know what I need to do to get there. I just spend so much time completing my everyday responsibilities that there's no time left for the goal-oriented planning and doing. I don't feel like I'm standing still, either, until weeks and months go by and I happen to notice I'm in the same place I was. And yet in a day's time, I (usually) feel like I accomplished something, anyway. Uh-oh, I'm having deja vu. Did I write this same post last year???

So where do I stand? Here. Am I closer to any goals than I was a year ago? Not really. Shit. I am standing still. Sometimes, though, it seems the world is moving so fast, that I am in actuality going backwards. Like when you're sitting in your car and the car beside you starts to back up and for a second you feel like you're moving and you're not. It's unsettling because you know you're stationary and you are tricked into thinking you've moved.

I think many of us spend so much time just maintaining and trying to keep our heads above water that time slips by and we lose track. Guess I'm just feeling a little stagnant today...

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315. How nauseating that fifth mozzarella stick or pancake tastes. (I miss Mitch!!!)